my new year is on march.

yeah. hey. hello everyone. here i am after a long hiatus. so. what now?
i think i may loss interest to blogging again. every time i want to write a new post i end up clicking the red-x button on the top right side.
i always think that if i burst every thought in my blogs, then i'm pretty much out of topic to talk about with my friends. its like im flashing "ouh i've written this in my blog, she might as well read it and it is no more a fun thing to be talk about."
but here i am. i'm actually talking about how i feel about blogging. is this post gonna make me change my believe? i wonder. lets just see when is the next post gonna be posted up.

oh yeah. anyway i miss bf so much. we have done much less talk, less date. i believe that his tight working schedules makes us grown apart. but there's nothing much can i do about it. on second thought, i must understand, he don't even have enough time to pamper himself like he use to. so, i might wanna take some time off him and let him do what he want. if he feel like talking, then we'll talk. if he feels like seeing me, then we'll go on a date. i just want the best for him. as long as his loyalty is only for me then i am fine with it. i don't expect him to give out much although i realize that we as human never satisfied of what we had. i tried to fight it. and true. it is hard. i fight myself from getting angry as when we get angry we will say a lot of bad things. and sure it will went on complicate things.